Wounds of a broken world...

Hold our hands against the wounds of a broken world to stop the bleeding.

Happiest day of my life...

I saw him today, but he walked past me like he didn't know me.
Seeing him again, was meant to be the happiest day of my life, but not only am I not happy, i'm compltely distraught.
He sits next to me, but it's like i'm not there.
He walks next to me, but it's like he has stopped walking.
Maybe right now, the image of me doesn't exist in your heart in your world.
He looks at me, like i'm a stranger to him...
We're both looking at eachother, but neither of us sees eachother, it's like we're both invisible to each other.
I'm sitting next to him, but why are my tears falling?
I'm trying hard not to let my tears turn into words.
I'll wait until he goes, then i'll cry my heart out.
Maybe it's because you loved me with all your heart, and now that you're not here life tastes bitter.
Have you forgotten everything. Every heartfilled word, every sweet kiss, every hug.
I miss you.

Soaked in petrol, her own little perfume

This pain in loving him, will end all so soon

Knowing that he was there, reading those words

She hoped it tore him up inside, she hoped it fucking hurt

He had meant the world to her, her fucking life.

But he couldn’t care, he just couldn’t care,

She takes a match and feels the flame slowly sting

She tries to remember the way it felt having him touch her skin

She never thought it’d come to this, she thought he’d always be there

She thought in her saddest times, she could rely on him to care.

She has been living within a figment of imagination.
She’s been living a fucking lie

Listen to the screams of torment as she fades away and dies.

Have you ever wondered?

Have you ever wondered which hurts most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?
Or saying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess the most important things, are the hardest to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart.
If you don't you might break theirs.
Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do.
it does it on it's own, when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to loved someone with everything you had, but the other person was too fraid to let you?
Too many of us stayed walled up because we are too afraid to care too much for the fear that the other person will not care as much or even at all.
Have you ever denied your feelings forsomeone because your fear of rejection was too strong for you to handle?
We turn to denial when we are afraid.
Afraid of what we don't know.
Afraid of what others will think.
Afraid of what might be found out about us.
Our deepest darkest secrets, our thoughts, our feelings, all revealed.
But everytime we deny something, the thing we fear becomes stronger, and we become weaker.
Life is all about risks, it requires us to take that leap of faith.
Don't be a person who had to look back and wonder what they could have done or could have been.
What would you do if everytime you grew fond of someone you had to say goodbye?
What would you do, if everytime you wanted someone, they end up to never be yours?
What would you do if you loved a person more than ever but couldn't tell them?
What would you do, if the only person you confided in, your soulmate or your bestfriend died tomorrow?


People live.
People die.

Don't be like me, don't live your life with full of regrets.
Don't give yourself the chance to walk through life telling yourself;
"Of I could turn back time, i'd tell him I loved him, maybe that would have changed things, maybe he wouldn't have left this world."

Tell that someone special you like them.
Tell your best friend how much you appreciate their presence in your life

Forgive me.

A million hearts are waiting cause they love you
Waiting for you to come home.
Though it's silent, i know it's you on the other line
Do you call to hear me cry?
Does it satisfy you knowing you've broken my heart.
I'm still here, still waiting...
I'll never give up on you, my beautiful friend.
No matter what you say.
How ever har dyou want to push...
i'll never give up on you Mark.

Clarity.

i woke up last night drenched in my own sweat, gasping for air, clutching onto my chest.
Physical pain. The pain has finally become physical.
I cried, i cried like I haven't cried in ages. I cried like my life depended on it. I cried till i was too tired to even shed a tear.
It was the sudden realization, of how much i needed him, how much i missed him.
I can't keep living in those memories.
No one understands why i'm fighting for something that hurts me so much.
Why i keep looking at those photos of us, knowing that i'll just end up in tears, crying over the same thing.

He begged me to stay and i turned my back on him, now that i've fallen to my knees to beg him to stay, he has compltely walked out.

I can't stop thinking about you. I can't help but remember those times. The fights, the smiles, the hugs.
I threw it all away in my moment of insanity and you stayed, you never gave up on me.
I'm meant to learn from my mistakes, but once again, it was only when i've lost it, that i realised i needed you.
My last words to you were... "i'll never shed a tear over you, ever again. these will be the very last"
What a lie. Cause i'm still crying now. Your absence is just so evident.

Mark where ever you are, how ever you are, i'm sorry, for all the pain i caused you, for all the pain you caused me.
Neither of us intended for things to end the way they did. Now here we are, neither is in the eithers life, both left scattered and torn. I will always be here for you my friend. My beautiful friend.